Believing In The Law of Attraction.

I remember the year I became a firm believer in The Law of Attraction. At the time I didn't realize this was what I was experiencing. I thought I had an unshakable belief in God or The Universe, I didn't want to deny it, but I couldn't name it.

The year was 2006.  We lived in a run down house that the landlord wouldn't fix. It had no warmth, was a total health hazard to my four boys whom were/are asthmatics. We were behind with the rent, my power bill was almost $1200 in arrears, I was almost 6 months pregnant with my only daughter and I was sinking below the waterline. I knew we needed a new house but I thought my chances were pretty slim as I was in arrears with the current house.

It had gotten to the point where I could only send the two school aged boys to school 4 days a week as I wasn't even able to put a simple lunchbox together for them. In saying that, I always had something in the cupboards to be able to bake, bread, scones or pikelets, just not stuff suitable for school lunch boxes.

I was new to the area so I didn't know a soul, I suffered from panic attacks and PTSD so found it very hard to let anyone into my life. I did my job of taking care of my children as best as I could. When they weren't looking, I would cry and cry, wondering how on earth I was going to get us all through this.

I was thumbing through one of the weekly newspapers and I stumbled upon the Oh Mary Mother of God Prayer...I had seen it many times before and thought pfffft, God was hardly going to give me a second look. But this day, I was so desperate, I found myself saying this prayer over and over. I wrote it down, over and over. I cried buckets saying this prayer. I remember being so broken it was like standing outside myself, I could hear this howling and heart wrenching sobbing..I could see myself, crumpled in a heap on the floor...it was so hard to believe it was me.

Skip ahead to 3 days later, I applied for a suitable house, I had no choice as I'd been given my marching orders the week before as to why I was finally in a desperate situation...enough to pray anyway. I didn't think I would get the house, many had applied for it as it was 4 bedroom, fire, garage and well fenced. I thought I had two shows of getting it...No show and $hit show.

However, I went to the interview, and was straight up with this lovely older couple about my situation. The man was a pastor from the local church and his wife was an active member in the community. I invited them to the current house to show the conditions we were living under.

Unbelievably I got the house!

This was not the end of my big lesson in the Law of Attraction. I started to pack up the old house wondering how I was going to get my power company to transfer my account to the new house while letting me still have power. Next thing I knew I had a major complication with my pregnancy and I was rushed to hospital. I had an abruption of the placenta, unknown to anyone I had pre-eclampsia! My daughter was drowning inside of me and I was bleeding to death internally.

Now you must be thinking, how is this relevant to the Law of Attraction, or this woman must of done something pretty radical to be attracting this kind of Karma, but this was what I would of termed "God acting in mysterious ways" but I didn't know it at the time.

Now remember, I was only 6 months pregnant, so when I arrived at the hospital, where all the Dr's were on strike at the time (my kind of luck!) I wrote my daughter off, believing I had already lost her when they rushed me in for emergency surgery, no prep, nothing...straight to theatre.

I remember waking up in recovery, hearing two nurses talking about a little girl (1030grams), I bolted upright and asked were they talking about my baby? Did I have a living baby? I was stunned she was actually alive. They wheeled me into the ICU in the NeoNatal ward and I met my beautiful little girl for the first time.

There were people in overalls surrounding her tiny body, tubes and machines and veiled whispers. I didn't realize they we're the specialist neonatal team, flown in from another major hospital. They were here trying to save my girl's life.

I was wheeled out so they could do their job. Having me there was making it difficult for them to work, it was so surreal. She was flown to the hospital that was equipped to deal with her and I was left in my local hospital as I was too unwell to fly with her.  I did however fly down the next day.

Whilst I was going through everything I had to deal with at home, I also had to deal with Dr's and nurses telling me not to get my hopes up. Brennagh had numerous problems due to her prematurity. I would sit by her, thinking this can't be true. Why would I be given her if I wasn't meant to keep her. I even remember striking up a deal with God or the Universe, my exact words were...Please don't take her,she's my only daughter, I will go through anything if I was allowed to keep her. Little did I know I would be called out on this promise when Brennagh was 9 months old, however that's another story.

By day 4, I knew she was mine to keep. I had an unshakable faith regardless of what the medical profession were saying. I just knew!

Anyway, back to the point of the Law of Attraction. Whilst I was in hospital, the power company connected my new house, the new landlord, the pastor, got some of his congregation to shift my stuff. I didn't have to worry about a thing! And to top it off, it turned out the IRS was ripping me off $200 a week previous to going to hospital. No wonder I was doing it harder in the pocket!

I did have a relapse a week later as my hospital notes went missing and I wasn't given the blood transfusion I needed when Brennagh was born, but I didn't care, I was just so happy to have her and have my home life getting sorted. Bren was in hospital for a few months but I never thought for one moment I would lose her. One of the ladies that shifted my household is one of my dearest friends to this day. Through this house i began to meet some wonderful people.

Even when I came home, I wasn't 'allowed' to go back to my hermit lifestyle. Bren's complications meant I had all sorts of medical people and therapists visiting every week. It felt like someone was visiting daily and they mostly were!

Since we're talking about the Law of Attraction, don't for one minute think the Universe won't call you out on your promises or goals! Mine was tested when Brennagh was 9 months. We spent a lot of time in and out of hospital. Bren never ate like a normal child and we didn't know why. After one hospital stay, surgery for a mal-rotation, and numerous tests, the dreaded news came back that Brennagh had Trisomy 18 (Edwards Syndrome).

After I settled down from the initial shock and horror of what that meant for us as a family...my promise at her birth came back to haunt me..it still does when 'life gets tough!' And I always suck it up and be very grateful I still have my little girl...I wouldn't have it any other way. Living with Brennagh and her condition gave me a complete attitude check and one I hold on to every day. She has made me a better person. All the weaknesses have gone, all the 'I can't attitude' or 'it's too hard' evaporated..those expressions are well and truly cast out of my life.  I love my life and I  love what the future has in store for me.

I hope this will inspire anyone to never give up and always believe in the best for yourself and your loved ones. Life really is what you think.

Until next time I wish you all the very best in life.

Kind Regards

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