I'm Scared:(
| There are so many different issues that people have everyday. Last night I was supposed to go to my children's concert, this is my daughters first year in band and my middle son had a solo in the concert, I couldn't go:( I have been having issues for quite some time now and the doctors can't figure out exactly what is going on with me. It started out with what I call "chattering teeth" but is so bad that you can hear my teeth smashing off of each other. And I couldn't stop it and I almost bit my tongue.That started about five months ago. Since then I have had strange things going on and they get progressively worse. My vision gets all messed up, I get rainbow colored swirls in my sight and then my face gets all numb and tingling, then my fingers 'fall asleep' and before I know it my sight is almost completely gone. After a few minutes goes by my heart starts racing and my chest gets tight. This has happened several times in the last few months, they keep trying to say they figured out whats wrong but then do tests and they realize they are no closer now then they were. The difference last night was that not only did I have all of the above symptoms but my heart would beat rapidly for a few minutes and then stop. My cousin thought I was nuts so he felt my pulse himself for about 5 mins and it scared him. Quite literally you could feel my heart beat strong and normal (a little fast but not a big deal) and then my heart beat faded away, it was completely gone, for a pause of about 4 or 5 beats. We called the EMT's and the male one thought It was no big deal, the woman told me that the hospital was full of sick people and that I shouldn't expose myself to them, so instead of bringing me to the hospital, she called them and told them what was going on and sat here with me for a while. She was really freaked out, she said at my age, 34, I shouldn't be having these issues. My mother died when I as 22 at the age of 40 from a heart attack, it was completely unexpected, my oldest son has congenital heart disease and my youngest child was born with cleft lip and palate and a heart murmur...so of course the doctors check everything they can think of,..they test my thyroid regularly due to my hyperthyroidism, but have proven that this is not my issue, they said my thyroid caused a sinus arrhythmia but that its innocent so that's not causing this stuff to happen. To be quite honest, I am scared to death. I almost died in a car accident 5 years ago and had a clot in my lungs, at that time I wrote a living will (age 29) but I never thought i would ever have to worry about it being used,.now I worry everyday. I can't work because of the accident and all of mine and my children's issues so I have no money except the little bit I get every couple weeks for child support, which is why I am trying to make money online. If anything ever happens to me I want my children to have something for money to take care of them, but at the rate things are going, I might as well face it, they just are not going too. I really don't think I am going to just keel over tomorrow or anything but I just wish that things would fall into place so that they can be taken care of if it ever does. I am sure the stress of trying so hard isn't helping either. I know this is a business platform but I felt like I should let everyone know whats going on, because I am trying so hard to do about 100 things, when really I just want one thing to work so my children will be taken care of when I am old....... |
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